Y Wednesday, May 27, 2009
giving him second chance?why should i?im not sure too myself.only a month ago then you realise you really want me back?you then realise you love me so?i know you for feaking two yrs.i know you well enough.i waited for you for a yr plus,and when i decide to move on,you came back to me?why now?i thought you move on far enough...we are more like friends,or maybe bestfriends where we share our thoughts,feelings,secrets,problems...evrything but now you want more?we use to be special to each other before,but you dump me badly,you put me aside suddenly...you cheated my feelings.faking with me abt love all the time,what makes you think that i trust you when comes to love?sorry sikit...seriously,i trust you.whatever you say i believed,but automatically if you talk or say abt love between you and me?haha.dont watse your time...;i wont trust.im not sure why,dont ask me,ask yourself.i know you wanna start anew,i shouldnt have remember the past but too bad,before was hurt soo much.i cant forget and its not easy to take it..
Labels: please move back
Y Tuesday, May 26, 2009
"the book of shadows..."
hahahahhaha.was having sch production...a short film tittled 'the book of shadows'.i was chosen to be the main character.hahaha.wth?!?!and the character was to be a little girl,being the fantasy fantasy type and died in the end.haiyo...Deva the director ask me to wear colourful dress,tie two ponytails and thick make up,to carry out the character.sigh...its so not me.but why not being diff?!hahaha.once in awhile...thanks to Ichan shades that he brought along.AWESOME!make me look 'vogue nyahhh'.hahahaha.so ya!and we took pics.DUH!!!:) it was tiring yet fun...nice pics guys!:)
happy looking @ the model of the day...lol:)
more will be upload.i gtg now.meeting anuar then go gtr.wanna print some shit pics first.lol:)sorry for the tidy pics.rushing la...later i edit okay syg .hahahahahaha.
p.s sorry about spoiling by wearing slipper.cause firstly,is part of the wardrobe and the location is at my area.so yeah...you know what i mean.lol:)
this is Ichan.my elder brother in the story.he is also one of the character.actually only the two of us in the act.hahaha.the other character is PONTIANAK!haha.crap.lol:)hahaha...we look like really siblings ekh??:)
theres more actually.slowly...not now.hahahaha.kinda busy with lots of stuff.theres alot that i wanna update.just waiting for the time.sorry ppl...BRB:)
kisses,huggies.
KAT is MAAADDDD!!!!!!:)
Labels: vogue nyahhh
Y Thursday, May 14, 2009
this is my phase test for digital photography class.
take pics in five mins then must edit using adobe photoshop after that send in to Mr Zo,our lecturer.UGH!!!this is fugly!oh god!
im going to flung for my test.
this is not good KAT!!!
hahahahaha.
nevermind...already expecting so.
wonder what are my marks.
hahahahaha
my exams are coming...
ddduuurrrr....
all assignments hanging??
lalalalalalalla
okay okay....
gtg.brb.
wanna head home.got dance..got show soon...
bye class.bye mr zo.
iqbal nak ape?
ahmad muackz!
hahahahaha
crap sak kat!
lol:)
my classmates are having great time laughing
one word 'BITCHES"
hahahahahaahahha
Labels: flung flung flung
Y Wednesday, May 13, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ!!!:)
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to SYAFIQ!!!
happy birthday to you...
Syafiq finally turn 19.Soon you're turning 20 already.Time go fast.Its gonna feel diffrent when the first digit changed 2 you know.you know what i mean.
Anyway,just wanna wish a happy 19th birthday to you!harap panjang umur dan murah rezeki slalu.be happy always okay??
good luck n all the best in every single thing you do.
succeed in life and have a bright future okay sweets!!!
you know i love you!
hahahahaha.
bye darling!!!
wakakakakakakaka.
only gentarasa ppl know whats going on between you and me.
bye baby!:)
see you in gentarasa prac!
gentarase press conference falls on your birthday...
no marah marah...
happy happy...
everyone sings for you...
paisey?
rk?
hahahahahaa.
Labels: my husband
Y Monday, May 11, 2009
happy birthday to YOU!
happy birthday to YOU!
happy birthday to ZUREEN!!!
happy birthday to YOU!...
hey,ZUREEN...happy birthday!!!:)
hahahaha.
sorry lovely...no presents for you.only wishes.but its the hearts that counts.hahahaha.erm...was glad that i saw you accidentally outside on your birthday.get the chance to meet you and wish you.thank god!anw hoping you and nurin will last long as strong as now...okay dude?!?!tc of her know.if not you kena!!!hhahahaha.
harap panjang umur dan murah rezeki.
have a bright future!:)
LOVE YOU!!!:))
see you soon!
*huggies*
Labels: ZUREEN
Y Friday, May 8, 2009
didnt know how to react whenever i see you.how to be myself.how to treat you like how i use to.its all different now.dont you agree with me?always remind myself 'be myself .be myself.'i tried so hard sometimes its just too obvious.i keep running away.laugh when its not funny,angry when its excitement,quiet when its enjoyment...
you leave me behind.im still here.looking at you everytime...is it your first time?i dont know.its just hurts me alot.piss off?yes,totally!no limits to everything?im being the slut?a'ah...nope!not me.forcing myself to fight you back.sometimes i feel that you are just testing me.testing out my patience.are you?she keep saying 'stop looking at him.just continue.he just testing you out.test him back.show him you could do what he could do.'i tried.i forced myself.but i didnt have the heart to do it.'sumpah tak sampai hati sak'.i did.but halfway...end up i guess i was the one still sufferring,hurt...burning inside.but you?guess you enjoyed...
i was surrounded at certain time,i was alone at certain time,i was trying to distract myself,while you were 'busy',you look at me.you watched me...why??were you?ugh!
you do what you are not supposed to do.ya i know,im invisible to you.yes i am...fine yes,im not someone to stop you.im no one to you...
asking ppl if im angry with you?asking if im piss off with you,deep inside i am!you know yet you ask!nah,i dont show it.especially to you.'this is what ppl call acting!'im acting dude!im acting!!!trying trying trying...forcing to act normal.ugh!get it??
you leave me behind.im still here.looking at you everytime...is it your first time?i dont know.its just hurts me alot.piss off?yes,totally!no limits to everything?im being the slut?a'ah...nope!not me.forcing myself to fight you back.sometimes i feel that you are just testing me.testing out my patience.are you?she keep saying 'stop looking at him.just continue.he just testing you out.test him back.show him you could do what he could do.'i tried.i forced myself.but i didnt have the heart to do it.'sumpah tak sampai hati sak'.i did.but halfway...end up i guess i was the one still sufferring,hurt...burning inside.but you?guess you enjoyed...
i was surrounded at certain time,i was alone at certain time,i was trying to distract myself,while you were 'busy',you look at me.you watched me...why??were you?ugh!
you do what you are not supposed to do.ya i know,im invisible to you.yes i am...fine yes,im not someone to stop you.im no one to you...
asking ppl if im angry with you?asking if im piss off with you,deep inside i am!you know yet you ask!nah,i dont show it.especially to you.'this is what ppl call acting!'im acting dude!im acting!!!trying trying trying...forcing to act normal.ugh!get it??
Labels: im just acting with you
Y Monday, May 4, 2009
i knew it.
told you so...
again i didnt attend school...
wth?!haha.couldnt wake up.what you expect?i got no alarm clock.my mum dont wake me up no more.plus i slept like in the this morning.anw,the plan goin to ite simei was confirmed with kak ziah.thx to fazlina who called me at two and i was woke up by the call.thnk u.
clean my room.take a nice freshing up bath.siap siap then go out.meet up with fazlina at my crib.haha.she waited for me.sorry...luckily abg man is there to entertain you.so ya..went down,accompany her to look for contact lens,just around my area actually.haha.after that she went back to school.well,her school is near my place,thats why call me to accompany ah?hahaha.
as for me,i went down to kallang to meet up with kak ziah after that.syafiq tag along with us.last minute.kesian syafiq was from sch sey...so we reach ite simei about five plus?suppossed to come earlier.sorry acap.i was late.you can keep the red carpet for next time okay??:)
before we get to enter the school,we must take stupid temp.irritating sey...proceed to cafe1 first to grab some drinks.guess what?i saw cherry.haha.my former classmate.and cherry,you dont have to inform the whole cafe that im there you know.haha.you called my name few times and reall,its very loud.haha.i know you're excited and shock to see me in ite simei but chill girl.i wasnt ten meters away from you.lol:) so cute la you cherry...
ooooo.azlan-aaahhhh!hey didnt expect im going to see you there.you noticed me from far ar??gd gd.haha.thx for tegur-ing also.guess you were rushing.sorry that i shouted your name.haha.was shock la dey!was dreaming when you bit me.azaln-aaahhh,haiyo..hahahahaha:)
so after that tegur-ing,we all proceed to the field.tujuan yg patut ditujui.haha.sememang memangnye.we took a sit and...first thing first me kak ziah and syafiq,we look out for our mates.SHAHRULNIZAM,AUDI BENJAMIN & ACAP...
hahahahaha.watch them play..we did enjoy ourselves there.haha.we make fun of ppl.oops!oh ya!glad to see you noor.haha.didnt know you could notice me too.while i dont recognise you.sorry...you look shy though.haha.well,known each other for yrs but only met today?haha.funny...and audi,thx for telling your friends my name,call me for nothing ar.audi step dont know ar.cant be bothered know.step knl only...dduuurr.rolling eyes*
anw,after their trg which ends roughly around seven,me kak ziah and syafiq wait for them outside the toilet.waoit them fresh up,change all...whatever la.me acap and yan went to cafe2 while the rest went to cafe1.thx acap treat me redbull...lucky i drink half,cos th other half spill.fuckerdoma*sorry acap...huhu:( finally too,i get the fbt shorts.been waiting since last yr for you to give it to me acap.okay proceed to cafe1 meet the rest then we ramai2 head to tamp...
acap yan me kak ziah and shahrul dropped at tamp inter.e rest audi and syafiq meet up with william and haizal at stadium gym.work out la katekan...
miss you acap and yan!!!they went home..me kak ziah head to mac..play laptop.nothing better to do.haha.shahrul dont know go where...
tried calling ayul...thought of meeting him jap ke.sigh...kinda miss him though.but nah...he didnt came down.its okay.theres always a next time aye??:) i hope...
kak ziah coincidencely met her old girlfriend.they had long conversation.happy gile member!:)haha.i played lappy je.layan diri sendiri...lol:)
the guys meet us up at mac after their workout katekan...they had their dinner then halfway me and kak ziah went off to hougang meet up with dikin,shafiq,anuar and some hougang ppl at Rk.syafiq went home.couldnt stand with the missunderstanding between the rest...thats why i decide to go off.its just a missunderstanding...why must get freaking angry??if you do have problem with me,then just say it lar...you dont have to give me hints that you do have problem with me know...sickening.ugh..
the guys meet us up at mac after their workout katekan...they had their dinner then halfway me and kak ziah went off to hougang meet up with dikin,shafiq,anuar and some hougang ppl at Rk.syafiq went home.couldnt stand with the missunderstanding between the rest...thats why i decide to go off.its just a missunderstanding...why must get freaking angry??if you do have problem with me,then just say it lar...you dont have to give me hints that you do have problem with me know...sickening.ugh..
it hurts!
hot topic at Rk.
what else when all gentarase ppl get together sey.haha.of cos,about gentarase.the bad,the good,the problems...the fun....everything la...from a to z!end up,i reach home at 3am.dikin sent me home.hougang not far from amk.lucky...thx dikin!:)
end up,the rest chill till 6am!!!
oh god,kecoh...still on the hot topic.just never ending story.hahahaha.
the next day,got sch and also gentarase trg.
dont think i could wake up again.
my throat.
its been hurting.ive been coughing non stop.i think im goin to die soon.huhu:)
wtf!!!
seriously...saket mak oi!!!
every morning i will feel the same thing.sick like fuck!headache freaking heavy!by late afternoon then i will feel slightly better.my neck also..
haiyo..whats happening?!fuck lar.
dont feel right.dont see it going right.
myself?nah dont think so...
dont feel the shit.dont feel the shit.
ya okay...whatever.....
Labels: whatever..., ya okay
Y Sunday, May 3, 2009
nothing really happen today.now im at emmah's place right now.everyone is asleep.except for me...not sure what time wanna head home.no worries.emmah stay just opp my block.haha.i know,yes we are neighbours.lol:) i was late for gentarasa.it starts at one but i came in like at five.im sorry for being late for prac.its sunday.firstly i woke up at one.secondly,my parents...they wont let me out till i finish doin my chores and stuff in the kitchen.well,have to.besides im e only daughter.what do you expect?tell me?!i know mdm mas is kinda piss off with me.but ya...just stay quiet.thats the best.again everyone is faking.i think will gain like few more kgs.seriously...gentarasa food is heavy.ice creams.chocolates.cookies.sweet drinks.mee.rice...dance prac?yes we did but it wont be able to burn all the cholestrol know.its not enough.im confused abt gentarasa.just goin with the flow.listen and just following the instructions given.ppl hating me in gentarasa?rumours in gentarasa?i dont know.dont care.everyone aint perfect.not me either.we left with one month plus before the day of performance.dancing hiphop in gentarasa?cant really do that.im not feeling it enough.but i have to.its the storyline...but its finished.just brushing up.cant wait to learn the super duper oldies tradisional malay dance.confirm chalengging.syiok!!!haha.anw tmr school starts at 11.and im still here.lol:)lifeskill??OH GOD!wonder if i could wake up.i need someone to wake me up.photography class in the afternoon.ends at five.dont think im goin.might be meeting kak ziah instead.just maybe.going with me to ite simei to watch and support Bboys soccer trg.especially ACAP!haha.go there for him.miss him alot.my classmate and bestman for straight four yrs in sec sch.haha.cool!!!confirm terkejut.sch?slack to the max!not sure why...especially photography.i think im going to flung this term.sorry mr zo.prodution goin quite well.i hope.haha.been finishing up productions ass but not photograhy.haiyo...exams coming soon.not yet revise anth.1st june exam..ddduuurr...so many things coming up.dance performances.dance comp.school.cca.cca meetings.dance meetings.silat meetings.huhuhuhu.IM MAD!!!!!
after gentarasa,went out to newton food place just to chill and drink with kak ziah,haikal,dikin,syafiq and myself.before that i was with niza and zul.haha.okay...oh ya.for a minit or maybe two,i ride,pillion on dikin's motor without an helmet.haha.i wore my hat instead.it symbolise my latest helmet.lol:) then eleven plus went home with syafiq and haikal.as usual...so ya.reach yck their 72 ends alrd.haha.we sit down at yck inter,slowly one by one went home.syafiq,went home ride motor.fren fetch.haikal,ride car,fren also fetch.haha.as for me?i walk home from yck.lol:)
here i am back at emmah's place.da la.nak go home..wanna get some sleep...okie dokie.good night ppl.you know i love you.NOT!hahahaha
wakakakaakkakakakaka
"BIBI I MISS YOU LAR BITCH"
Labels: sleepy
Y
i dont know why.i dont see myself moving.i know and i do realise that i always and never fail to write stuff abt u.but i cant stop myself.i need time out.i am,but its not working.i miss you.seriously...we are friends,sure im glad that we are.but,are we even behaving like we are friends?tell me abt it...ask yourself.sometimes i just feel im faking.trying to act per normal,smiling,being as loud as usual,crazy as usual,nuts as usual,joke ard especially with you..well?not anymore i guess?no!please.in every way i show you,i show them that i will not forget.why?i dont love you.i love you as a friend.but every sec i miss you.always want to meet up with you.everytime i see you,yes,im happy.deep inside im angry.UGH!why?i love someone else so is that why you turn away?is that why you easily give up on me?is that why you say im not fit enough for you?is that the way to settle things up?alright,maybe?being true to me to yourself its way better than lying.fine!but why did you turn away?i thought you could help me forget that someone else.i thought you will be the one cheering me up all the time.i thought you will always make my day.kiss my forehead?do push up,sit up hand stand,head stand at night?do monkey bars for me?do stupid stunts for me?always be the last one to hug me?give a shoulder to cry on?just for the one you loved?god damn it!i try not to cry every night.like hello whats the point bitch?!but when im angry i cry.easily...when im confused i cry.when im sad i cry.when i just cant let it out i cry.it hurts crying...
i know soon you will hate me more.soon you aint going to treat me like a friend no more.soon you will avoid me.soon you will treat me way different from others.soon we are strangers.soon you get paranoid with me.soon you feel like beating me up.soon you will always be bad mood and angry with me whenever you see me.soon you are just not yourself with me.soon you will be faking yourself.soon soon just soon.....
will you?i hope not.i dont want to.please dont.ill stop.one day.not now.you have to help me.treat me like how you use to treat me when we first time met.remember we are friends?start afresh...strangers,friends,close friends,bestfriends...hmm?how?you still like me?erm,whats the point again??ahhhhh FUCK.
can we settle this?wait!thought we alrd did?okay..i know im the problem one.im sorry...forgive me.i need to know whats in your mind right now.honest.truthful.i want to know whats in your heart right now?your feelings?sincerely.honestly.truthfully..can do that?wanna try going out just the two of us?see what will happen?have you ever wonder what will happen?i always wonder.wanna try it out.i myself not sure how will it turn out?haha.nak try tak?not kidding.lol:)
i hope all this wont affect my sweet seventeen.cause every year,when my birthdate is closer.life will jus get worse.happiness will only last for a day.then thats it.e rest just hurting myself up...every yr sak!bile mau happy ending?dream on KAT!CHEER ME UP!!!please.....NO GUYS FOR NOW.WANNA BE LESBIAN.should i?i think i should??:)
yawn....*
i know soon you will hate me more.soon you aint going to treat me like a friend no more.soon you will avoid me.soon you will treat me way different from others.soon we are strangers.soon you get paranoid with me.soon you feel like beating me up.soon you will always be bad mood and angry with me whenever you see me.soon you are just not yourself with me.soon you will be faking yourself.soon soon just soon.....
will you?i hope not.i dont want to.please dont.ill stop.one day.not now.you have to help me.treat me like how you use to treat me when we first time met.remember we are friends?start afresh...strangers,friends,close friends,bestfriends...hmm?how?you still like me?erm,whats the point again??ahhhhh FUCK.
can we settle this?wait!thought we alrd did?okay..i know im the problem one.im sorry...forgive me.i need to know whats in your mind right now.honest.truthful.i want to know whats in your heart right now?your feelings?sincerely.honestly.truthfully..can do that?wanna try going out just the two of us?see what will happen?have you ever wonder what will happen?i always wonder.wanna try it out.i myself not sure how will it turn out?haha.nak try tak?not kidding.lol:)
i hope all this wont affect my sweet seventeen.cause every year,when my birthdate is closer.life will jus get worse.happiness will only last for a day.then thats it.e rest just hurting myself up...every yr sak!bile mau happy ending?dream on KAT!CHEER ME UP!!!please.....NO GUYS FOR NOW.WANNA BE LESBIAN.should i?i think i should??:)
yawn....*
Labels: feeling it
Y Saturday, May 2, 2009
siku seven seven knock knock
hello!hey you!yes you!FUCK OFF!
hahaha.ELIZAAAAA!!!!!GILE...hahahaha
FAZLINA go home??haiyo.
blablabla.
Afie and friends are here @ starbucks plaza singapura.
blablabla.
sorry didnt meet you today bibi.i need sometime on my own.just
away with them skejap.skejap je.like few hours.haha.dont know la.long story.pendekkan,280409!!!
siku seven seven knock knock
i know you promised them alrd to meet up with them thats why i dont mind you with them.though i miss you like fuck.but ya...just have to.promise is still a promise know.im at starbucks from 8pm.till now...nth to do actly.just chill with Eliza.sigh.i hope you have fun with them though.Bitch miss you.
anw,AUDI MISS YOU!!!!aaarrrgghhh..
hhahahahahahahha.hope you have fun with him too.hahahaha
chill la girl..dont make it to obvious.lol:)
you know i know.
i'm not sure why im blogging and whats my intention of doin this.but well just feel like typing only.still not okay.IM NOT OKAY!!!
I SUCKED!!!ME yes ME!!!
okay okay.MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!like in TWO WEEKS TIME!!!
hahahahahaha.16 MAY MAY MAY MAY..
SWEET 17th...
yuuuuhhhhuuuu...
i love you i love you i love you
i love ME!!!
i want presents!ADIDAS NIKE BABY PHAT RIPCURL HANDPHONE IPOD LAPTOP DRESSES...what else what else what else???
name me BITCH!
da la..malas nak continue.hati saket... :(
nak nangis larrrr..
no no no no no
tahan bitch!
bla bla bla
Labels: aarrrgghhhh yyyyaaaaa
