Y Friday, May 8, 2009
didnt know how to react whenever i see you.how to be myself.how to treat you like how i use to.its all different now.dont you agree with me?always remind myself 'be myself .be myself.'i tried so hard sometimes its just too obvious.i keep running away.laugh when its not funny,angry when its excitement,quiet when its enjoyment...
you leave me behind.im still here.looking at you everytime...is it your first time?i dont know.its just hurts me alot.piss off?yes,totally!no limits to everything?im being the slut?a'ah...nope!not me.forcing myself to fight you back.sometimes i feel that you are just testing me.testing out my patience.are you?she keep saying 'stop looking at him.just continue.he just testing you out.test him back.show him you could do what he could do.'i tried.i forced myself.but i didnt have the heart to do it.'sumpah tak sampai hati sak'.i did.but halfway...end up i guess i was the one still sufferring,hurt...burning inside.but you?guess you enjoyed...
i was surrounded at certain time,i was alone at certain time,i was trying to distract myself,while you were 'busy',you look at me.you watched me...why??were you?ugh!
you do what you are not supposed to do.ya i know,im invisible to you.yes i am...fine yes,im not someone to stop you.im no one to you...
asking ppl if im angry with you?asking if im piss off with you,deep inside i am!you know yet you ask!nah,i dont show it.especially to you.'this is what ppl call acting!'im acting dude!im acting!!!trying trying trying...forcing to act normal.ugh!get it??
you leave me behind.im still here.looking at you everytime...is it your first time?i dont know.its just hurts me alot.piss off?yes,totally!no limits to everything?im being the slut?a'ah...nope!not me.forcing myself to fight you back.sometimes i feel that you are just testing me.testing out my patience.are you?she keep saying 'stop looking at him.just continue.he just testing you out.test him back.show him you could do what he could do.'i tried.i forced myself.but i didnt have the heart to do it.'sumpah tak sampai hati sak'.i did.but halfway...end up i guess i was the one still sufferring,hurt...burning inside.but you?guess you enjoyed...
i was surrounded at certain time,i was alone at certain time,i was trying to distract myself,while you were 'busy',you look at me.you watched me...why??were you?ugh!
you do what you are not supposed to do.ya i know,im invisible to you.yes i am...fine yes,im not someone to stop you.im no one to you...
asking ppl if im angry with you?asking if im piss off with you,deep inside i am!you know yet you ask!nah,i dont show it.especially to you.'this is what ppl call acting!'im acting dude!im acting!!!trying trying trying...forcing to act normal.ugh!get it??
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