Y Sunday, May 3, 2009
i dont know why.i dont see myself moving.i know and i do realise that i always and never fail to write stuff abt u.but i cant stop myself.i need time out.i am,but its not working.i miss you.seriously...we are friends,sure im glad that we are.but,are we even behaving like we are friends?tell me abt it...ask yourself.sometimes i just feel im faking.trying to act per normal,smiling,being as loud as usual,crazy as usual,nuts as usual,joke ard especially with you..well?not anymore i guess?no!please.in every way i show you,i show them that i will not forget.why?i dont love you.i love you as a friend.but every sec i miss you.always want to meet up with you.everytime i see you,yes,im happy.deep inside im angry.UGH!why?i love someone else so is that why you turn away?is that why you easily give up on me?is that why you say im not fit enough for you?is that the way to settle things up?alright,maybe?being true to me to yourself its way better than lying.fine!but why did you turn away?i thought you could help me forget that someone else.i thought you will be the one cheering me up all the time.i thought you will always make my day.kiss my forehead?do push up,sit up hand stand,head stand at night?do monkey bars for me?do stupid stunts for me?always be the last one to hug me?give a shoulder to cry on?just for the one you loved?god damn it!i try not to cry every night.like hello whats the point bitch?!but when im angry i cry.easily...when im confused i cry.when im sad i cry.when i just cant let it out i cry.it hurts crying...
i know soon you will hate me more.soon you aint going to treat me like a friend no more.soon you will avoid me.soon you will treat me way different from others.soon we are strangers.soon you get paranoid with me.soon you feel like beating me up.soon you will always be bad mood and angry with me whenever you see me.soon you are just not yourself with me.soon you will be faking yourself.soon soon just soon.....
will you?i hope not.i dont want to.please dont.ill stop.one day.not now.you have to help me.treat me like how you use to treat me when we first time met.remember we are friends?start afresh...strangers,friends,close friends,bestfriends...hmm?how?you still like me?erm,whats the point again??ahhhhh FUCK.
can we settle this?wait!thought we alrd did?okay..i know im the problem one.im sorry...forgive me.i need to know whats in your mind right now.honest.truthful.i want to know whats in your heart right now?your feelings?sincerely.honestly.truthfully..can do that?wanna try going out just the two of us?see what will happen?have you ever wonder what will happen?i always wonder.wanna try it out.i myself not sure how will it turn out?haha.nak try tak?not kidding.lol:)
i hope all this wont affect my sweet seventeen.cause every year,when my birthdate is closer.life will jus get worse.happiness will only last for a day.then thats it.e rest just hurting myself up...every yr sak!bile mau happy ending?dream on KAT!CHEER ME UP!!!please.....NO GUYS FOR NOW.WANNA BE LESBIAN.should i?i think i should??:)
yawn....*
i know soon you will hate me more.soon you aint going to treat me like a friend no more.soon you will avoid me.soon you will treat me way different from others.soon we are strangers.soon you get paranoid with me.soon you feel like beating me up.soon you will always be bad mood and angry with me whenever you see me.soon you are just not yourself with me.soon you will be faking yourself.soon soon just soon.....
will you?i hope not.i dont want to.please dont.ill stop.one day.not now.you have to help me.treat me like how you use to treat me when we first time met.remember we are friends?start afresh...strangers,friends,close friends,bestfriends...hmm?how?you still like me?erm,whats the point again??ahhhhh FUCK.
can we settle this?wait!thought we alrd did?okay..i know im the problem one.im sorry...forgive me.i need to know whats in your mind right now.honest.truthful.i want to know whats in your heart right now?your feelings?sincerely.honestly.truthfully..can do that?wanna try going out just the two of us?see what will happen?have you ever wonder what will happen?i always wonder.wanna try it out.i myself not sure how will it turn out?haha.nak try tak?not kidding.lol:)
i hope all this wont affect my sweet seventeen.cause every year,when my birthdate is closer.life will jus get worse.happiness will only last for a day.then thats it.e rest just hurting myself up...every yr sak!bile mau happy ending?dream on KAT!CHEER ME UP!!!please.....NO GUYS FOR NOW.WANNA BE LESBIAN.should i?i think i should??:)
yawn....*
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