Y Friday, July 24, 2009
hey,i wana talk about this ''Mr.SMR"...
i've been seeing you three days straight.oh god!heart pumping whenever i see you.yeah,guess you find out that i have crush on you.thx to people that stands around me.well,its just a crush nothing much.nothing serious...whenever i attend,i cant wait to see you.terserempak, a glance also wil do.hahaha! but,now i feel guilty.towards everything.everything seems so clear right now.seems so obvious to you.oh gosh!im scared to face you now.lucky its already weekend sey... wait!i need words to express what really my heart is feeling.F***!
okay,ill try.erm...my intention is just to be friends nothing more than that.it doesnt matter if you already have someone.cause that does not bothers me.well,we already had our first conversations.now the only thing i wanna do now is to stop seeing you and start from the begining.i feel guilty whatver that happens within these few days.im just scared that you will think that i have different intention,maybe bad...i dont know.sometimes i tell myself
'siak ar,aku da mcm pompan gatal sey..shok sendiri!wth!'
i do feel embarrased about myself.i know i was the one started by noticing you.it happen way months ago.now everyone knows about it.including you.you are not suppose to know actly.but ya,you know why...i hope youre not thinking bad about me.cause im not!i am noy what you think i am.pompan gatal?gosh!tell about it.seriously,just now,in the equipment room,im not sure whether you're shy or you're scared to face me.its seems like im the one making the first moves?OH NO!!!way NOOO!!!uh uh!i hate that.i do not want to be labelled that.if possible i would want you to do the first move.which you already did but,ugh! why?why?why? okay i know my cuz is trying to match make us somehow. but i wont agree so if i do have crush on him,so what?!i wont wanna make the moves.
okay,i dont know what im talking right now.im just so stress about everything.about 'mr.SMR' about tomorrow,about sunday,about a new 'Mr' entering my life.about school.about dance.about production competition,about....what else?!hurrhurr.
oh and,to the new 'mr',i would like to thank you for being honest and straight forward with me.thx for noticing me since you i know you for the first time appreciate it lots.thx for waiting to make the first move at the right time,i guess.
alright,ill continue tmr.i hope!:)
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