Y Thursday, August 27, 2009
to you,
thats it! thanks for everything. i was sobbing last night because of you. thanks for all the hopes. thanks for all the trust. thanks for all the concern. thanks for all the hug. thanks for all the kisses. thanks for all the care. thanks for all the messages and calls. thanks for being there for me. thanks for all the wake up call. thanks for believing. thanks for all the laughters. thanks for the love? thanks for the challenge!
guess i won the challenge you have challenged me. thanks for losing in this game. look who is the one couldnt stand with who. look who is the one giving up and decide to move on instead of waiting. look who is the one " sanggup ke tak sanggup?" told you so, "im patience".
you throw all my love that i treasured for you. i thought you showered me yours too but guess i was wrong about it. everyday, every hour, every mins, every secs its you that i see always. both in my mind and heart. all these have to put to a stop. no point! no point having this feeling anymore.
me: " hey i know its late. sorry to disturb you at this timing. i dont think this concerns you at all, maybe it does but just a lil a bit?i dont know. or you knew... but just wanna let you know i just misses you very much. hope to see you soon. really... and i'll look for your blue baju kurung okay okay??:)) sorry kalau irritating, night sweets! "
you: "kat. sorry i didnt reply your msg. just to let you know that im attached now. about the baju kurung. im sorry. my parents suroh tukar colour. sorry for everything. "
i couldnt reply. i didnt reply. just as easy as that right dude? i couldnt sleep last night. thinking about it and sobbing too much. i keep reading your messages. is it just a reason? to avoid? am i supposed to believe it? whatever... i kept your first few messages. i read it again, maybe before i would delete it... it makes me smile but it ends me crying again. gosh! i couldnt stop and handle it. sorry...
im not disappointed with you. im disappointed with myself. failed in love again. great! just great! fifth time in a row for this year. congrats to Kat??
oh ya, i have a huge hatred to guys right now. sorry guys. maybe im just not being lucky. nah, guys? forget it. trusting you? will take years now. thanks to the bunch of guys that i date. sorry...
me: "i hope you'll forgive me. i seriously do. im sorry. but please stop contacting me. i dont want to have any relations with you at all. sorry. forget me. thanks! "
i sent this to my closest guy friend and a date of mine. im sorry guys. forgive me to end 'us'. how i end up with guys pull me downs each time. yes, im a bastard! Kat is a Bastard!!!.. i agree, i admit i am...
to date,
im sorry that i have to this to you. getting you involve in the situation. but i couldnt help it. im sure you can find someone better than me. im sure someone out there would treat you better than i did. i need to let go everything. please forgive me. dont hate me. but if you do, its okay i understand. please dont jump to conclusion that i have someone else in mind, use to though. well, i dont. after what you read, you might understand why. SORRY...
lastly, to you,
hey, i really hope you're happy with the girl you with now. i pray both to have a longlasting relationship and be happy always. you happy, i more happy! :))) no worries. i can assure you i dont hate you. we are still friends you know!:) maybe we are better off as friends?? and im happy for you. like i said im not disappointed with you. its me dude. so do take care of yourself. and of course your dearie. would like to meet her one day?:))) hahahahahaha... just beep me anytime aye? i hope you read this mr! * wink wink *
love, Kat...
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